“The lows don’t last any longer than the highs do.”
I’ve had quite the emotional rollercoaster in the last week. If I’m being honest, most of the last few years have been mid-level and low. I mean, definitely highs are in there, but not very much.
This week however showed me just how fast my mind can take me up and down—literally within minutes. I don’t exactly know how to deal with any of it—much like most of the entire world, I assume—but with my recent “awareness” regarding my mental health, it’s been a strange journey. I can sit there and be sad, knowing my mind is why I’m sad and I don’t need to be sad, but still stay sad. Like, what am I supposed to do in that situation?
I’ve been struggling more with being by myself for 90% of my life and work routines, lately. I don’t have a ton of close friends in the area and they all are “terrible texters”.
I keep reminding myself that it’s not a bad thing, it’s just a time where I can focus on myself and my goals (like writing this damn book STILL). That doesn’t always work, though because as we know, our mind is a dangerous place.
BUT, in light of some good news and a fantastic “high”, I wanted to get on this darn blog and post a nice picture with some truthful words. I’m still not good at talking about my mental health struggles, but I still think this helps, so I’m going to try and keep it up. Plus, it’s warming up, so outside days are a’coming, which means many more pictures of this beautiful city and not just from my window.
Wherever you are, I hope you’ve had some highs in your day to combat the lows, because like the quote at the beginning says, life is an up and down journey—it never stays the same.