“Motivation isn’t necessary. You just have to do it.”
—a slightly paraphrased quote from page 182 of Stay Sexy & Don’t Get Murdered
This statement punched me in the face with a bag of bricks and ran me over.
It’s okay, though. I’m fine.
I have been using the motivation crutch for years (coupling it with the lovely mental health struggles) and I didn’t even realize it until this morning.
During this quarantine moment we are all having, like everyone, I have had good days and bad days. Mainly, I’ve been lonely and sad I can’t enjoy the Minnesota nice weather (because we only have that summer life for a few months tops out here), but I’ve also had a sense of “motivation” to get some of my personal goals back on track. It’s been a very subtle change, but it’s there.
However, I was still using the excuse of not having motivation to work harder, or at all when I spend the day on the couch with Netflix and games on my phone. This is why reading that section of the book hit me harder than other parts.
It seems so simple, maybe even silly, because, of course we don’t need motivation—not for things we love to do, not for things we hate to do, or we need to do. So why do I need motivation to write? I love to write. I love to eat popcorn and I definitely don’t need motivation for that. I don’t need motivation to go to work because I need to for money—there isn’t a choice, so I just go.
Today, with this post keeping me accountable, I’m going to start viewing things in my life a little differently. No more using motivation as an excuse. I don’t need to like it, but now there is literally nothing standing in my way to get shit done.
Making my way back one week of scheduled blog posts at a time.
After a couple months of craziness, I feel ready to focus on my creative drive again. Let’s just say, I overwhelmed myself mentally and physically these last two months and have definitely learned what my body and mind can take. A full time job, coaching on the opposite side of the metro, and multiple weekend trips are a no-go for this lady.
However, I don’t regret the insanity because if we don’t push ourselves, how are we ever going to know what we are capable of. Or what path we should take to be capable of more?
At this point, I know that the way I planned things (or didn’t plan things, honestly) is not the way I’m going to succeed, but now I’m excited because a different path can lead me to much a brighter and better way of life.
That all being said, this week will be pretty photo heavy until I can get back into the writer’s grind, which is never really a planned thing.
Something I haven’t been in life is spontaneous. I like to plan, have a plan, and follow the plan.
Cue the anxiety.
I don’t deal with anxiety as much as I did in my early twenties. I’d like to think I have the average amount people do these days aka it doesn’t affect my life much anymore. That being said, I still struggle with just doing things.
So this summer, one of my goals is to be more spontaneous. I’ve started working on that within the past couple weeks and super worked on it this last weekend. My friend got free tickets to a county music festival and I went with.
The reason why it’s spontaneous is that I don’t listen to country (I knew one song, though!), it was a little over an hour away, and we had to drive home afterwards after midnight.
All in all, I’m glad I went. It was a short and sweet lesson that sometimes when opportunities arise last minute, it’s okay to go with the flow.
The first two pictures are Kane Brown and the last one is Jason Aldean (I promise, even though you can’t see anything 😉 ).
Typically in my life, I take on a lot at one time because I have little patience and a lotta interests. For the remaining months of 2018 and hopefully into 2019, I’m going to attempt to take that down a notch.
…a small notch.
The first step, I think, is to set manageable, attainable, yet successful goals—meaning ones that I know I can achieve, but that still push me a good amount towards my dreams.
The biggest goal is to post here once a week (aka here’s number one). Because I work full time, I’m not giving near enough time to my posts when I do multiple in one week. Clearly, I’ve burnt myself out already, as I’ve lacked consistent posts the last few months.
My next goal is to incorporate videos. I don’t necessarily plan on becoming a “Youtuber”, but I desperately want to improve not only my video editing skills, but also my conceptualizing. I’m always thinking, creating in my mind, but I sometimes have trouble translating it over and it’s honestly from lack of practice.
This next goal meshes together video and photo. I want to work on one big photography project a month, adding along side a video (either behind the scenes or as the project). Hint for this month’s—Thanksgiving. 🙂
Lastly (because four is an awesome number) is to get my lazy ass out of bed in the morning and work on my manuscript that’s been collecting dust since the summer…
…not happy about how I’ve left it hanging, but with recently renewed anger about my financial situation and jobs, it’s time to get back to work. I can do this for myself.
Yay! I’m excited for the next couple months (even though it’s cold now), but unfortunately I’m in a constant pull between being optimistic and depressed. I had decided this would be the place to be honest with myself about my struggles, but I’m so used to ignoring them and that is why this blog has lost its path.
Luckily, I’m stubborn, so a hop, skip, and jump back onto the path we go!
What are some of your end of year goals? Why wait for the new year for a resolution when you can start now?
When the season changes, I change with it—like most people do. I always say I love summer the most, but I’m really just kidding myself. Fall is my all time favorite. Similar to springtime, it makes me want to refresh and be a better me.
Helping my motivation to change, music has always been a point of inspiration for me and not necessarily the lyrics. The melody, beat, harmonies, instruments—they all typically draw me to a song first. Then, if I can relate to the song personally—all the better—if not, oh well, it still works! this sentence formatting is cringy but commas are hard
Here is my growing fall playlist (complete with throwbacks because those are the best kind of songs)!
Also, enjoy my little line graphic! Been digging how the simplicity looks lately!
A lot of my latest posts have centered around dealing with mental health, mostly because I’m trying to figure out how to deal with it and writing helps, and this one is no different.
I found a list of blog post ideas on Pinterest for mental health-centric bloggers. I, of course, can’t find it now, but it’s Pinterest, there are hundreds of options.
The first one was to write twenty things that make you smile, and let me tell you, it was harder than it should have been to get going, but when I was done, I couldn’t stop.
And that felt really good.
So, I encourage you to try it on your bad days or your good. Here’s mine for some inspiration. 🙂
20 THINGS THAT MAKE ME SMILE:
Seeing a friend after a long time (aka a week or two)—this also includes dog friends, but I will always be excited to see a dog.
Music, specifically that song of the moment (you know, the one where you’ll drop anything and everything to jam out to?), which right now is Let Me by Zayn.
A tried and true goofball. This makes (hopefully) everyone smile, but man, I love a corny jokester.
Writing. This is obvious, but what makes me smile about it is when I hit those goals, but at this point, if I get any writing done, I’m happy.
Making other people laugh. I’m not super witty, but sometimes it’s there. 😉
Singing belting in the car. Enough said.
Solo dance parties
Fresh air whether it’s winter, fall, spring, or summer, it doesn’t matter.
Laying in the sun (preferably in the summer this time).
A well written book. I run into so many books that just don’t live up to my expectations, though it does give me a boost of motivation because I’m pretty sure I can do better than that.
Winning sports (and/or games of any kind)
The cabin aka Canada.
My paycheck (because we have to remember, I’m broke and money makes me smile).
Stella Cidre (it’s alcohol, guys)
Tacos, Mac and cheese, pineapple
Giving gifts. This one recently developed in the last few years, but I’m glad it did. There’s a whole lotta joy that comes from giving!
Any and all of my story ideas (I will talk your ear off.)
Women supporting women because that’s we I need and that’s what we need and it’s always a wonderful, empowering sight to see.
This might be all over the place, but I was stuck at five for a long time. Now, I could probably make it to 40 in a few minutes, but I think that’s the point. We need to remember to put our mindset back in a place of happiness, rather than continue to pull in down into darkness. Harder said than done, but this little exercise is a good one to help.
One lesson that I’m constantly reminding myself—and that I just recently took to heart—is to continuously put yourself and your dreams out there. Take every chance you get that involves your passion. Create your own chances. Even when you expect that nothing will come out of it, do it.
I’m still not there. I’m still not living by this, but I’m learning and I’m trying and that’s what matters most.